Why do I still feel like I’m not special?
Every day I’m reminded of the fact that I’m virtually nothing
I think I’m something
But am reminded by the world I’m nothing
People leave their marks and are remembered
But I never have felt that I’d get my chance
Sitting in my computer chair living nothing
Working at my job doing nothing
Nothing engulfs my life
It’s darkness consuming me
I can’t control it, I don’t know how
My dad has been trying to teach me
I never listened well, nothing ensues
I fear nothing, but nothing fears nothing
and engulfs anything it can
I want to leave my mark, I want to be somebody to remember
But I feel because of my position in life
My future will be nothing
Nothing meaning a lot of things
Nothing meaning drab boring and lifeless
One of those zombie jobs awarded to me for attending four years of college
And putting myself 20 years in debt
Nothing is that, nothing is also contradiction
We work, we plan, we aspire
All for nothing, everything costs something
Only to have your life engulfed by nothing
Life is hard for those who don’t have something
Something being money
I don’t have something, something is harder and harder to get
It’s sad how something is required to achieve nothing
So much something, that nothing is the endgame
Why does that make sense? Why do we do it?
Because life is full of nothing, and moreover…
People tell me to be confident. And then continue to tell me that even if I don’t have confidence, have confidence. Okay. Yeah. I’ll do that. Sure.
Hey. Are you doing okay?
I don’t think anyone is ever “okay”, but thanks for asking (:
Vodka + V8 Vfusion = Yes…. Just yes.